God, where are You when i need You?

God, I've praised you and being your humble servant for so long in this life,
But my life seemed to be in such a confusion lately, why?
Have i done wrong, have i angered you in any way?
But i thought you to be the ever forgiving Father until the end of time?

My life is breaking apart by the bits
Didn't you hear my plea, God that i so often pray to you
Did the Heavenly Father wants me to go through hell on Earth,
If you do, be prepared to stretch your arm out to support me, Father.
I know you test us from time to time as long as we live,
not to punish us, but merely to prepare us for the worse in life
To strengthen my mine, my heart, and soul,
But Father, i am at the point of breaking a part....

Please Father give me a rest to recuperate,
Or do you want your child's soul to greet you at the Pearly Gate?
I am so attached to my children, Father, please don't let us part,
Once taken away from me, my damned soul will be seeing Lucifer instead.


--CH Wan,30th May 2009