Skin whitening? fact or spoof?

These days, majority of patients especially ladies above the age of 35 start seeking doctor for treatment for their patchy pigmentation on their face or in general. Its either hydroquinone cream (which is associated with skin cancer if it contains more than 4% and used for prolonged period of time.), then the debatable Vitamin C injection(according to my experience, results tends to be subjective) , and finally vitamin C with glutathione injection.(non, most doctors will tell you its very effective and you're able to appreciate the result within a few days!)
However, if you ask the Doctor how does Glutathione works on skin whitening, he would probably go well, da,,,its,,,da,,its..ba..da...ba.. I'm not too sure, but it works! (wow! Fantastic answer!) Ladies, one piece of advice, if you are going to get treatment for whatever condition, make sure you ask the doctor how the chemical works, or how the regimes works, to ensure you 're being used as a guinea pig for the exchange for your bucks!
Recently I bought this book for the purpose of knowing the mechanics and the physiology of this chemicals, how it functions, what are their properties, any unwanted side effects, etc... Its better to equipped yourself with these knowledge so as i know exactly what i am doing and doing it with a piece of mind.
And i know there are many ladies out there who somehow manage to get their own supply of Glutathione, and eager to bring to a doctor who is willing to inject them into you. My advice is, please don't! I can guarantee non of the suppliers or beauticians who eagerly sell these to you know how they work. Yes, they works! But the point is knowing HOW IT WORKS... any SIDE EFFECTS, ..
Ladies, why would you want to risk several hundred ringgit getting these possible tainted supplies when you can get the original ones from the doctor himself. Even when you see a doctor, ask for the doctor the mechanism of which glutathione works just to make sure he knows what he is doing.
As a doctor myself, I would like to warn the public that there are many half trained doctors who are too eager to jump onto the bandwagon in lucrative field of Cosmetic Medicine.

Ponder on it

Ever wonder why we existent? We grew up, most of us grew up hard, losing loved ones, encountering numerous heartbreaking moments, suffers along the way to old age, then ultimately face the inevitable death without a single penny able to bring over to the other side. ( I still wonder whether Heaven or Hell really exist, or is it merely a concept) Why most of us face unbearable sadness that drives us to the brink of insanity?
This somehow made me wonder if God ever really exist. We're supposed to be His child. You're supposed to guide us in life to the path of truth. But instead, why most of us are lead astray and ended our lives tragically?
Death, famine, wars, genocide, racial killings all for the sake of Religion. But i thought " For God so loved the world that he gave his only son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.For God sent the son into the world, not to condemn the world, but that the world might be saved though him." --John 3:16-17
Many of us are still lost, leaving in fear, filled with hatred in this "felt like God forsaken world" The idea of the Holy Trinity a times seemed so far away, beyond reach, even when we're down on our bended knees pleading to him without knowing whether would He have heard our calls to Him.
Then why Lord, we as your children are often lost when You promised us that "For the son of man came to seek and to save the lost."--Luke 19:10
Society is filled with menace and evil doers, who steals, rapes, and kills. And yet, you love both pure in heart and sinful man equally?Why, Lord? If our life doesn't revolves around the cycle of death and birth and in accordance to the law of karma, how can one justify an innocent soul being killed? In the concept of Karma, if the person who did something evil, he would be punishable by death either in the present life or the next life.
But if no circle of life, then this poor fellow lived his life probably with hopes and dreams like all of us was just killed... just like that.. This doesn't make sense.
We know we are Your creation, and that Your thoughts are higher than ours, but the simple act of taking another person's life is unjustifiable. We are all your children, Lord. We deserve Your love, not Satan's wrath.
Heaven Father, You gave up Your only Son, Jesus Christ's life in Calvary for the forgiveness of the past sins men has committed? The Devil's work is still rampant today. When will Your second coming will be?
Life today, is still a constant battle between good and evil. To me, the battle if fought in the mind.
Evil manifest itself as doubts, uncertainty, fear, jealousy, etc.
How do we arm ourselves to fight this impossible fight in life, God.
I found myself asking this question in prayers quite often lately. God I pray that you reveal yourself to me in your own special way, Lord.

Making it big in life

Being the last day for the year, i can't help but to reflect upon the events of my life for the last 1 year. Starting a business on my own has been a challenge, both mentally and psychologically. I've read numerous self motivational books written by self made man such as Robert Kiyosaki, Anthony Robbins, Donald Trump, and many more.
Robert Kiyosaki was the first self motivational book i've read before i started work. His famous best seller "Rich Dad Poor Dad" taught me that money comes in different forms such as bonds, shares, real estates, etc. He defined what assets and liabilities means. . His books totally changed my impression of what assets and liabilities is all about. My old perception of liabilities and assets has been the opposite all these while.

Nothing less than a business mogul. I read so many of his autobiographies that tells of his constant challenges. The most admirable traits this guys has is his "there's always a solution to every problem". What else can i say about a men who was once in debts US$99 million, and 35 trillion USD. He remarked in his book that even a street beggar is richer than him by 35 trillion dollars. Reading though his book and you'll realize how through various techniques not only was he able to settle the loan but managed to rebuit his multi million dollar empire today. His philosophy is there is always a way out of any bad situation. Turn the odds against you around and made them into your leverage to propel you forward.



After reading this two books, i told myself, hey, they lead a very exciting life, and they excel even after being in economic slump. Both of them has always been my motivation that gave me strength for my own business venture..
September 2008 was the beginning of our business. Throughout the years, there are many up and downs not only patient crowds, but various competitions, national economy turmoil, that totally reduced the crowd by more than 3/4 patients. It's funny how while i was facing the same economic turmoil as those businessman, I wasn't able to react or think like they do?
I figured I am not made for business? I can never be my own boss. (but hey, what i am thinking and saying is the exact example of a self prophesy)
I was right when i read the book from Anthony Robbins,"Unleash the giant within". Our state of mind determines our surrounding and the surrounding circumstances.(well, not always the case) Being successful is easy, its what you do when you are successful that's the test of character.
In a state of depression like mind, I ought to change.... but how.... ?? the same way negativity thoughts started in your mind..... an idea.
There are many idea that stems in head. How to improvise the business here, then further on to expending the business. Ideas are filling my head like effervescence. Too long to write about it here.
Perhaps I will share with fellow readers how overcame depression that was really bad!.

The are times where weeks goes by with only 3-4 patients! I am serious! It is impossible to continue the business of this pattern goes on for few more weeks.

For months, i was perpetually in depression. All the money invested on the clinic and the instruments, gone. Each time I go back home whenever i see my children's eyes, i felt like a failure.
After a long time spent in solitude, I prayed hard to my Heavenly Father to help me to show me the way and guide me for the reestablishment of my clinic.

Missing my daughter

2 days ago my second sister came back from Australia with their 2 children, so , my dad thought it would be nice to take a trip down to Melaka to stay with my first sister there for couple of days.
He broke the news to me while i was in the clinic. I was left speechless for a while ( i know i am going to sound silly) but "No Isabelle at home?" for how many days? "3.."
I knew how much this trip meant to her as she was looking forward to spend some time with her cousins all the way from Australia.
To be frank, its really heart wrenching when i come home from home without the usual her loud "Daddy!!!! while run towards me with a hug kid of greet.It just feels like opening the door, walk in and shut the door.
I miss kidding around with her, fighting for the astro remote control, she jumping all over me, her kisses, her hugs, her voice, her non stop questions whenever we watch movies.
I always knew how much i love her, but staying in a house without her made me realized how much more i love and miss her.
I miss her goodnight kisses, hugs, family prayers...I miss stroking her hair while watch her falling to sleep. Those were the same pair of eyes when daddy cuddled you while you were a baby years ago. Daddy remembers how I would rushed home from HKL during my 1/2 hours lunch time just to cuddle and spend even 5 minutes with you. You will always smile whenever you see daddy.
And, Isabelle, daddy miss you waking me up every morning.
Each time i left my bedroom, i would never fail to just look at how peaceful my wife, Natalie, and Isabelle lying on the bed in dreamland. It simply has got to be the most precious scene of the day for my day.
Daddy will always pray for your safety and always be a good girl ok. Daddy and mummy miss you terribly here. Love you Isabelle.

My Feeling

As i had mention in my previous post, when you don't have anyone suitable to share your problems with, the next best things is to express them out over the net. I know personal problems aren't conventionally publicized, but there are no other way. I just need someone to lend me an ear.
There are times i question myself why am i facing such problems which will linger on for the rest of my life.
There are times being in solitude, physically being confined within the four walls, but let my mind roam free would have been therapeutic for me.
My lifestyle revolves around a strict routine of waking up in the morning, go for a 12 hour job, come back, attend to my daughters, watch some TV, review the bills, then go to sleep. And this goes on for 6 days.
Sunday morning, breakfast with family, then spend the whole day with family and my in laws. What tears me apart is leaving both my parents at home. 80% of the time, we'll go out with my in laws, and each time i don't get to fully enjoy the outing. Imagine those two people whom had provided me with so much love and care in bringing me up. And its hurts me deep down leaving them at home. Though they say, go ahead, have a good time, we'll be fine. Deep down, I know they would want to spend time with their grandchildren as well.
Heavenly Father, i must have done some wonderful deed to have deserved such fantastic parents. Heavenly Father, without such wonderful parents, i wouldn't be who I am today. There are so many times every morning when i see my parents in the kitchen sipping their coffee, I just wish i could run to them and give each of them a bear hug, like what i use to to when i was a little kid. God, i am still a kid in heart, who longs for attention and love, tender words and touches to soothe and to restore my weakened soul.
I longed for my natural childlike state of mind. I want to be free from the bondage of life. Lord I longed to experience eternal bliss, i long to experience you in me. I NEED YOU to hold my hand and lead me the right way into your Heavenly Kingdom. Lead me out of mortality into immortality. That's my prayer to you today. thank you for lending me an ear whenever i call upon you,Lord. Thank you gracious Lord.

Ever wonder we exist?

My mind constantly play tricks on me, affecting my emotions, thoughts, morale, and personal relationship. However I can't blame is entirely on me, but rather the circumstances that surrounds me. There are phases in life where you walk 2 feet taller with the air under the feet. Trees around you which have been taken for granted for years, suddenly appear to sway its branches in motion which seem to say hi to you. It feels wonderful to wake up and look forward for another exciting day.You look out the window and birds chirping at the sight of you. You look down the garden, flowers bloomed overnight into its glory, just in the right time for you to praise them.
There are times when you feel natures is on your side.
Whenever i had such feelings, i would try to cling it as long as i can, since the devil constantly tries to grab my feet to pull me down.
The Battle.... is physically and mentally challenging. If you don't understand what i am trying to say, well,how many of your have disagreement with your parents, spouses, children, colleagues, your own temperament, financial, almost every aspect of life. Those battle between good and evil manifest in such subtle ways such as these.

Blog is a great medium to voice out what i've kept within me for the longest time. I do not care what kinda of impression i get for fellow readers, but for those who can relate, you'll understand me.
I and a God loving man. But there are often times when I felt His presence is light years away from me. I know its not true, but I felt You have forsaken me whenever I needed You the most. But instead, you are up there in the heaven watching. Wanting me to take a fall. I know its s test, dear God, it can be overwhelming.

My thoughts are Your thoughts
I don't see what You see so clearly...
Hold my hands Lord I pray to you.
Carry me through the unavoidable rough moments in life, Heavenly Father.
Don't leave me all alone as an orphan in this cruel world Lord. My prayers goes to you and i pray that you'll lend me an ear whenever I call upon You, Lord.
The world needs you now Lord. You've mentioned on your second coming among us. The World is in turmoil and many souls are crying out for you.
Its been hundreds of years of waiting for your second coming . Some are still hoping, while most of us who were subjected to endless years of despair and sufferings begin to lose hope altogether.
Lord, for those who has already lost total hope, the Devil has reigned over them,Lord. Come soon.
They need your hands to guide them back to the path of truth.
How i wish for a Father figure who is always there by my side, providing me with security and assurance. I longed for your touch, your loving word, your warm embrace.
I know Lord, that you had never left me, but by merely standing aside looking at me fairing the test that you're thrown to me. I knew that you are always with me, around me, next to me, in me. But unable to see you. There are times I pray that you would reveal yourself in glory to me Lord.

Funny Japanese Videos

I've discovered these hilarious videos online. I hope you'll have a good laugh watching it as i did.

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2nd video



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Hope you'll get a good laugh!

Life

There are often times where i found myself staring blankly to the computer screen, not knowing what to write. There are a million issues going on in my head, however, i find it difficult to express it out. Life is such a constant battle. It drives me into this melancholic mood at times. Have you ever wake up from sleep without looking forward to face the day? Lately I do.
I simply bow down and pray to my Heavenly Father asking for strength and guidance and hope that such negative thoughts are just transient, cause i know i can't go on being like this.
I am certain of the fact that God put us on a constant test to evaluate and improve our self, and not to break us. God knows us more than we know ourselves. I am sure of that.
Often I find myself in a crossroad, to decide to chose between the easy but wrong way, and the difficult and right path. Very often i chose the 1st. Why is my mind always seeking the easy way out, and regret the choice later? The devil is prancing with joy in my head, celebrating in jubilation over the decision that i made.
Dear God, free me from the disillusion of life. Lend me an ear whenever i call upon you. Hold my hand and lead me to freedom. I pray that you'll grant me inner strength and peace. Lead me back to the path of truth whenever i've gone astray. Reveal yourself to me, Lord.
Despite my various shortcomings, I am comforted by the fact that i blessed me with a wonderful family who supports me in every endeavor. My heart blossoms each time my daughters run towards me with open arms. The feeling of their warm cuddle is absolutely indescribable. Unless you are a parent, you wouldn't understand the feeling.
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Would you believe it if I were to tell you that God just demonstrated to me how lucky I am? Just as i was lamenting on how difficult and hard life is, a man just walked in my clinic, sweating, shaking, and teary. He claimed he just arrived from Penang this morning to visit his aunt who is staying in this area. Unfortunately as he got down from the bus, his backpack containing his wallet, aunt's contact number and address, wallet, was snatched. He made a police report and showed me, which proved his story was genuine. He was still shaken by the incident that left him wondering aimlessly in this area. He needed some money to purchase a bus ticket to get back to Penang. I gave him some financial assistance.
He was grateful and thankful. Deep in my heart, I was the one who is supposed to thank him for showing me that there are thousands of people who are in a more desperate situation than I do.
I am ashamed. But thank you Lord. Nothing is by chance, but by You.

Removing music player from blog

Chatted with a friend today and somehow the conversation got to the topic about the music player in my blog. Tell me guys. If the person says,"Waaahhh, Got music player one,loh!! Canggih!" What usually comes into your mind?


...... I am removing it. Thank you!

My memorable family trip to Melaka

Just thought it would be a great idea to spend some quality time with the family before i start working again. After 3 months of their absence i realized how much i love and need to be with my family. My little young ones are like angels to me. Seriously. I am not being boastful here. Its just my love for them is so much that i find it rather difficult to live without their presence.
Since my eldest sister is working in Mahkota Specialist Centre,Melaka, we will be staying at her 4 room condominium near the city centre. I've heard so much about that place from my parents. Well, i guess i just need to check them out. Both Isabelle and Natalie were totally excited about the roadtrip. They have taken out all the DVDs they're planning to watch in the car while traveling.
Both of them got their eyes glued to the portable DVD player's screen the entire way!! The trip was a pleasant 2 1/2 hours drive until the moment we reached Melaka town where the traffic builds. The drivers were as "brutal" as KL drivers...if you know what i mean!
On the first night, we went strolling at Pahlawan Shopping Centre. Well, to be honest, there isn't much to see when you are from KL and already use to the KL shopping centres, yeah?

Some fountains nearby.
Pahlawan Shopping Centre is an underground shopping complex built below a vast multipurpose field. Natalie and Isabelle ran all over the place with so much of excitement as they have never been on such wide expense before.. (at times I really pity these city bred kids, who had never experience life in suburban or the rural area. Ask them how a chicken looks like, they would probably point you the featherless frozen chicken in the supermarket!. ...sad to think about it,yah?)
We went home and slept late. We chit chat for a while catching on old time. The next day, we took those two kids swimming! They were excited!!
Throughout the entire trip, i emphasized that each of the 13 states in Malaysia have certain culture,food,tradition, or way of life which is their identity. And so, Isabelle asked me, "So, daddy, what's there in Melaka that no where else have"?
I was so excited when Isabelle asked me that as I was getting ready to visit the Stathuys, the Farmosa Fort, the eye on Malaysia, Jonker Walk, and many more.
First I showed her the well decorated rickshaws all over Melaka town. See Belle! You can only see this in Melaka...."Boring!!..." These rickshaw drivers charges RM400 for an hour ride!
Look Belle! The Fort of Farmosa built by the Portuguese to fend off invaders and attackers from the sea!!...."Boring!!!!......
This child is hard to impress!!!
"Daddy! Can you hurry up and take the picture?? Can we go now!????"....Aiyah Isabelle, this is all part of history Belle! "Still daddy, its booooooorinnnnnnnggg!!!!"
They say you visit to Malaka isn't complete until you have dined at the Portuguese village. So, off we went.

"Borrrrrriiiinnnnnnnggg!!!!!!!!!!!!)
"Borrriiinnnnngggg!!!......"
Ah, you want to go shopping ? To see many interesting things???? Yes, daddy! ... responded unconvincingly that such place exist!
Next stop! The overcrowded weekends only Jonker Walk!
Look right,look left...always got something interesting things to see or eat!!!
I told myself prior to coming to Melaka that i wanted to take some photos of the old streets, the activities of the people there in Black and White. But i just couldn't find time for that, especially wherever i go, the family goes along too!
I try to impress Isabelle by showing her the variety of things sold and the beauty of these old buildings. But i guess she is too young to appreciate all that!

Look Belle, these people are performing a chinese musical! ......it caught Isabelle's attention for like 2 minutes, then ....."booorrinnnng"....
Ohhh, Belle, check out those things they are selling! This guys sells a variety of colorful miniature ornaments.
Are you hungry Belle, want to try these kuih "only found" here!!!! Of course these Chinese pastries can be found in KL too!
Suddenly out of nowhere a loud shrieking disgusting sound came out from no where. I looked around and saw this!
Rubber Chicken!!!! Oohh, Daddy!!! I want this!!!! I want this!!! No Belle, we don't come all the way from KL just to buy rubber chicken! "But daddy, you can't find this is KL!!???" ........
she's got a point!
Everywhere you look, there are rubber chickens hanging everywhere. As if its telling you to buy them!!!I seriously mean it!
You look right, you see this...
You look left, you see this...
They even have rubber chicken wearing bikini!!!!
Daddy...daddy!!! I want it ! I want it!...Ok, fine. I told her that i'll get her something that cannot be found elsewhere, and she found the perfect thing!
This Rubber Chicken that makes the most irritating disgusting shrieking voice as if its trying to lay eggs!
I still can accept the fact that we came all the way to Melaka, and all that we got back was this!

Goodbye Asus!

My faithful Asus computer has been with me through thick and thin for the past 2 and a half years. Yes, my dearest companion, we've been through a lot together over the years. Through all the medical presentation that you faithfully served me. Finally, you started to break down. Not sure whether you've been inflicted with a virus or perhaps your time's up. No matter what, its hard to part with you.







Seeing you each time always feels like the first time. Those years which every morning I will switch you on to check on the latest happenings around us. You're my window of the world.
I've looked forward to each day which begins by seeking for you, touching you, switching you on.....
My heart lightens up each time your name flashes before my eyes without fail throughout the years..... Until several days ago....
"What the heck?....What's this nonsense???
Aikk!!! Help!!!!
This is looking bad.. this never happened before! Before i knew it, more of these error messages begin to pop up on my screen.
Soon enough, there are 5 error messages on the screen. I right click on each one to cancel it, but more of them appeared!!!!
Thrashing the keyboard doesn't help either. Soon it was 7,8,9,10 error messages!
My heart sank when I pressed the start button to click on "Computer".....then this appeared....:( ....I've reached the heights of discouragement.
Powering down the machine...it will be for the last time." Shutting down" suddenly seemed so appropriate.
I guess its time to get a new machine. Initially i wanted to get another Asus, however this time i opted for something smaller, but with bigger spec.
Yes, my fourth Acer.
My past experiences with the previous Acers tells me that they aren't made to be durable. Cheap, gets the job done, and then in no time, it starts to break down and it always begins at the frame of the monitor.
Somehow, the salesperson managed to convinced me that Acer has come a long way since those days. They are indeed still affordable compared to other brands, but these days they've decide to size up the specs
with an improved looks.