Me!

I am human,
I have peccadilloes that makes me a man
What do you expect me to become
A human, or to neglect my family and being a zombie?

I work 12 hours a day, 6 days a week
It's only for a 2 hours I break daily
To rest, to break, to keep my sanity
I work on holidays, I skip meals daily
why are you questioning my work ethics
I've worked 4 years without salary
I have a family too, stop questioning my integrity

Asking me not to relax too much
is 2 hours a day too much to ask?
I'm testing my sanity within this 4 walls
sit here all day long waiting for patient to come along

can you FUCKING SEE THE CHANGE IN ME
IN 3 MONTHS I'VE LOST 20KG
I'VE CHANGE MY LIFE 180 DEGREE
DAILY I CYCLE FOR 30KM, NIGHT TIME I WORK OUT TILL 1 AM

STOP QUESTIONING MY LIFESTYLE
YOUR ELDEST ISN'T THE ONLY ONE
WHO WORKED HER ASS OFF
YOU COMPARED ME TO HER, STRESSED ME UP
JUDGING SUCCESS BY SALARY, YOU THINK GOD JUDGES BY MONEY?
SO WHAT'S IF YOU HAVE MILLIONS IN YOU ACCOUNT
DOES IT MATTER IF YOUR LIFE IS ON THE COUNT DOWN?
YOU CAN'T CARRY A SINGLE FUCKING CENT WHEN YOU ARE DEAD
SO WHY ARE YOU ALL JUDGING ME BASED ON WHAT I HAVE?

I HAVE A BEAUTIFUL WIFE, AND THREE ANGELIC CHILD
THEY WORTH MORE THAN ALL THE MONEY YOU EARN IN THREE LIFETIME
"SHE WORK SO HARD I PITY HER" YOU KEPT ON TELLING EVERYBODY
I GAVE MY BLOOD, MY MONEY, MY TIME TO SOCIETY IN ANONYMITY
YOU ARE BLINDED BY THAT, WHY DON'T YOU JUDGE ME BY MY DEED?
YOU CONDEMNED EVERYBODY ON HOW IMPERFECT THEY ARE, BUT YOU FAIL TO SEE
YOU ARE BLIND ON THE FAULT WITHIN YOU, BUT ON OTHER YOU SEE
THAT'S HYPOCRITE TO THE HIGHEST DEGREE

I TUG MY CHILDREN TO BED, I SPEAK SWEET LULLABIES TO THEIR EARS BEFORE THEY SLEEP
THE FIRST THING I SEE WHEN I WAKE UP ARE MY ANGELIC THREE
THAT'S WORTH MORE THAN DIAMONDS AND MONEY
I HAVE A LIFE TOO CAN'T YOU SEE

IF THIS IS THE WAY YOU JUDGE YOUR CHILDREN, WHY EVEN BOTHER TO GIVE ME LIFE
IF NOT FOR MY FAMILY I WOULDN'T HAVE SURVIVED
I CRIED FOR YOU WHEN I KNEW YOU WERE DYING
BUT HAVE YOU THOUGHT ABOUT ME WHO LOVE YOU EQUALLY?

YOU COMPLAINED YOUR TREATMENT CONSUMES MONEY
HAVE YOUR PRECIOUS RICH DAUGHTER CONTRIBUTE FINANCIALLY?
DESPITE EARNING MONTHLY 5 FIGURE SALARY?
I LOVE MY WORK, I HELPED, I CONTRIBUTE TO SOCIETY
WHILE YOUR RICH DAUGHTER GOES FOR MASSAGE 3-4 TIMES WEEKLY,
SPENT HUNDREDS IN HAIR SALON,WHILE I SPENT RM10 IN INDIAN BARBER ONCE IN 2 MONTHS,
HAVE MY MEALS IN COFFEESHOPS, WHILE SHE SPENDS HUNDREDS IN FANCY RESTAURANT
WHY ARE YOU COMPARING ME? OUR CIRCUMSTANCES ARE SO DIFFERENT CAN'T YOU SEE?
I NEED TO SHOUT IN THIS POETRY, LISTEN TO ME, I AM GOING TO PUT A BULLET THROUGH MY HEAD IF AGAIN I LISTEN TO YOU COMPARING HER WITH ME,
OR I'LL HANG MYSELF ON THE CEILING WITH MY LAST WORDS WRITTEN IN BLOOD
SPLATTERED ON THE WALLS FOR EVERYONE TO SEE
HOW YOU BROUGHT ME UP AND TORTURE ME MENTALLY
DESPITE TRYING SO HARD I'VE CHANGED MY LIFE AROUND
YOU'RE STILL BIAS WHEN YOU JUDGE ME
I CAN''T TAKE IT ANYMORE
SHE EARNS 5 FIGURE SALARY, AND SPENDS MONEY ON LUXURY
I DON'T EARN LIKE HER, I LIVE IN POVERTY,
YOU WILL NEVER SEE, BECAUSE OF MY ANGELIC THREE
HARDSHIP AIN'T NOTHING TO ME
MY LIFE IS HEAVENLY, YES, IT IS HEAVENLY
I SOUR THE SKY DAILY ALONG WITH MY GOLDEN THREE
DO YOU HAVE SOMEBODY TO GREET YOU DADDY,MUMMY, LIKE ME?
NO YOU DON'T, YOU JUST HAVE A WALLET FILLED WITH MONEY
WHICH YOU DIE, AND CAN'T BRING ALONG ANY
I HAVE SWEET MEMORIES, EVEN IF I DIE TODAY, I DON'T REGRET ANY
YOU TOLD ME NOT TO HIDE ANYTHING FROM MY THERAPY
WELL I AM NOT HIDING NOW, I AM TELLING THEE
YOU ARE THE ONE THAT IS STRESSING ME
YES YOU, YOU, AND YOU THREE
YOU MAY GIVE ME THIS BODY, BUT IT WAS GOD WHO GAVE ME LIFE,
ONLY GOD CAN JUDGE ME,NOT YOU,DAD AND MUMMY......
I MAY BE USELESS TO YOU TWO, BUT APPRECIATE BY MANY
I KNOW MYSELF, JUST AS GOD KNOWS ME
MY LIFE IS ABOUT PURSUING HAPPINESS AND EQUANIMITY
AND ITS NOT ALL ABOUT THE FUCKING MONEY
WHICH IS HOW YOU COMPARE MY SISTERS WITH ME

-WAN CHEE HUNG 26/12/2011