Life Through My Eyes

Life through my eyes
would scare a square to death
misery, death, torture, mental disturbances
and never a moment to rest
Fun and games are few
but treasured like gold to me
cuz I realize that I must return
to my spot in misery

But mock my words when I say
my heart will not exist
unless my destiny comes through
and puts and end to all of this life that I live in

Who are we, why do we exist?
Do you enjoy seeing me living in misery?
Appear before me when I call upon you,
My family is breaking apart over petty misunderstanding
While I continue to my best to serve you Lord,
What happens to all the communication that once so rampant,
It all stopped suddenly
The dream was so vivid I could still remember
an abandoned street with rubbish on the pathway
You passed me a broom to and asked to sweep it away
Am I on the right path now Lord,
Please appear before me when I plea for thee
talk to me directly, held my hands,Lord
and lead me to immortality.

What a song to start your day!

I've been listening to this song and contemplated on it's lyrics for a long time now. And I thought it would be nice to share with fellow readers. This songs tells me to live this unpredictable short life to it's fullest. Have a good listen and appreciate the lyrics I've included below.
 BURN
Do you wanna be a poet and write
Do you wanna be an actor up in lights
Do you wanna be a soldier and fight for love
Do you wanna travel the world
Do you wanna be a diver for pearls
Or climb a mountain and touch the clouds above
Be anyone you want to be
Bring to life your fantasies
But I want something in return
I want you to burn, burn for me baby
Like a candle in my night
Oh burn
Burn for me
Burn for me
Are you gonna be a gambler and deal
Are you gonna be a doctor and heal
Or go to heaven and touch God's face
Are you gonna be a dreamer who sleeps
Are you gonna be a sinner who weeps
Or an angel
Under grace
Ill lay down on your bed of coals
Offer up my heart and soul
But in return
I want you to burn
Burn for me baby
Like a candle in my night
Oh burn burn for me burn for me
Yeah
Ooh
I want you to burn baby ooh
Laugh for me
Cry for me
Pray for me
Lie for me
Live for me
Die for me
I want you to burn
Burn for me baby
Like a candle in my night
Oh burn burn for me burn for me
Yeah
Ah yeah
I want you to burn
I want you to burn for me baby
Ohh yeah

I don't know why....

I am not sure why this morning I woke up with a certain uncomfortable, uneasy, and unpleasant feeling.Perhaps it could be due to many factors.
Perhaps its something that has been within me for such a long time that I failed to identify the cause of this unhappiness.
Tomorrow will be my father's second chemotherapy. Seeing my father who is such a fit, joyful, God loving person who's undeserving of his sickness. Life just isn't fair. I felt the pain from within, and as I am writing this, my breathing laboured and my eyes tearing up.
Please God be with him whenever he calls upon your Name, held his hand and take away the fears that he face. He's Your angel who walks on earth. Why him?
Second could be due to my staggering slow business. I must find a way so as misery doesn't creep into the lives of my three children.
There, I've let out my heart's burdens. Does it make me feel better. Definitely maybe. It is time like this that i yearned for Your presence, Father.

Leonidas 1st Birthday Celebration

Time sure flies with a blink of an eye. It felt like it was just yesterday that I got married, and today, we're celebrating our third child's 1st birthday!
While waiting for me to come back from work at 9pm, my wife, and her siblings were out getting food for the celebration. While some of those who chose to stay and socialize a bit.

The two white guys are Canadian. On the right is my sister in law's husband, Dave, while on the right is Don, his friend who tagged along in their trip back here.
Last year, my sister law managed to stay to witness the birth of Leonidas, and this time for his first birthday.

Exactly 1 year ago, this photo was taken in Sunway Medical Centre. Leo was just a few hours old.
Fast forward to the present day, is it 1 year already?

 It sure is. As Leonidas turns one today, I would only able to describe his development milestone as, exciting, joyful, and precocious.
Now back to the celebration. We've got BBQ chicken wings and Satay to go along with the cake.

It wasn't just Leonidas who was excited that day. As a matter of fact, I am unsure whether he knew what was going on that particular day.
His sisters seemed excited.

Isabelle and her beloved half Chinese half Caucasian cousin,Ylanna.

all ready to kick start the celebration.

Leonidas's green tea yummilicious cake.

His gifts from auntie and parents.

It was a joyful moment. For a while, all the worries that occupies my mind if left outside the house,why? Because Leonidas deserves a whole hearted genuinely happy celebration.

 We were sure he would love the gift that we gave him. He seem to love to come over to my side while driving and play with the steering wheel. So, we thought of getting him his own steering wheel. He was truly happy seeing his gift.

Happy Birthday Leonidas. May this be a good start in your long exciting life. Seeing how happy he was that day, it further strengthened my desire to make him and the rest of my family as happy as that particular day.
It doesn't matter if we aren't millionaires, nor being materialistic. True happiness is from within. I just wish for health, and our  family to live life and grow up as a tightly knitted family.

Our own "PowerPuff Girls..."

In the event of my demise

This is a private post.
Email me to read it.

Poem to my siblings

I pour my heart into this poem,
and look for the meaning of life
the "rich and powerful" always prevail
and the less fortunate strive through strife
MISTAKES ARE MADE TO BE FORGIVEN
we are too young to stress and suffer
the path of purity and positivity
has always ridden rougher
Your insatiable desire to find perfection
Has made your fault magnify
curiosity can take Blame
For the evil that makes you cry
It isn't a good feeling when you disobey you Heart
The nightmares haunt your soul and your nerves are ripped apart
People born into the world seek upon you for a safe passage
They pay through their teeth to ensure they arrive safe
people give birth everyday, hence your everyday pay
Condo, car, cash, you have them all
Though I am a healer too, but ain't nothing like you
One sick, there are 13 clinics to go to
How can you compare, its not even fair
my customers are inconsistent, unlike you
I am trying my best, but I can't make people fall sick
unlike you, being the only lady gynae, patient's seek out for you
While I try to seek out patients, but how to do that?
Have you ever thought about that?
You are gloated with your 5 figure salary,
While I work 12 hours a day, 6 days a week,
and I don't even have a pay slip.
You piss me off when you open you mouth
You judge without think, what's the use of the grey matter
that God has given?
Am I that bad? Am I the black sheep? Have I intentionally do anything that
jeopardizes the family?
NO! It's the half thought judgment that you guys made upon me!
I have feeling like you, I have emotions like you,
I have desires like you, and I have faults like you too.

My Frustrations

My life is a melodrama
Love my parent like no one else
Its sad the rest of my family thought otherwise
I grew up watching my family growing apart

I am so frustrated inside
So much being kept waiting to burst out wide
But "family reputation" is far important
Why so blind towards my intentions are?

I am depressed, because I am accused
mum is mad at me, said that I am no use
they have no idea how much I've cried over such matter
accumulated over the years in my effort to make thing better

the same blood that runs in the family
bears no significance at all
I envy my wife's family,
broken but love holds them together

I can't write any more,
cause if i do, I'll definitely receive a call
reminding me what a useless son I am
for revealing "secrets" within the family.

Weekend with a difference!

The Garden,MidValley,1Utama...these words spells routine in my time spent during weekends. So, yesterday, we've decided to go somewhere different!

Genting Highlands!!!!! The children were excited especially when they were told it's a cool place with theme parks with rides.

 We parked our car at the First World Hotel, then walked to the outdoor theme park.

It's been a while since we came here. We were depending on the sign board to lead us out from the lobby to the theme park.

When we reached the ticketing counter for the outdoor theme park, we purchased 4 tickets, 2 adults and 2 children, Isabelle and Ylanna.
I was kinda disappointed at the environment there as the temperature was cool but the air is polluted with smell of cigarette smoke.

While the kids spent their time at the outdoor theme park, Leonidas and Natalie were too small to sit on any of the outdoor rides. So, we headed towards the indoor rides instead.

We had to walk all the way back to First World hotel.

Children were required to measured for their heights mainly for 2 reasons, to determined whether they need to pay for rides, and whether they are allowed for rides.

Leonidas was equally as excited as Natalie while entering the indoor theme park with all the rides and glistening lights with music playing on the background. 

Chinese New Year just got over but the decorations hasn't been taken down yet.

Leonidas and Natalie's first ride...The Merry go Round. 

Time sure flies when one is having fun. We totally forgotten about lunch. We stopped by MaryBrown's Friend Chicken. 

We spent another 3 hours or so loitering around while the kids were having the time of their life. Well, they totally deserved them, as I work 12 hours a day,6 days a week, and hardly have time left to spend with them. 

It was almost 10pm when we were looking for a place for dinner. 

We stumbled upon this restaurant called Shanghai 10. We were hoping for some authentic Chinese Food.

The restaurant was decorated with ancient old Chinese paintings mixed with modern art, a tastefully fusion of contemporary and ancient arts. It has a very warm ambiance, pretty much feel relaxed while in it. 

Grandpa playing with little Leonidas....

We left Genting immediately as it was already approaching 11pm. 

Even Natalie got sleepy already. 

Though tired. But everyone was truly enjoying themselves yesterday.

2nd day Thailand trip

After pampering myself in the bathtub and 8 hours of sleep, I woke up fresh, ready to start my day with a bang. But the weather was downer.

It rained in the morning.
TToday we rented a mini van to visit Ayutthaya, the first city established in the Kingdom of Thailand by the first King,U Thong back in 1351. The city ruins is more than 500 years old and still well preserved. Unless you've been there, you'll never able to appreciate the beauty of it as the blistering heat turns off the interest. Lucky for me, I love photography and ancient history. I bought myself a Mexican hat(aiya karamba!!!!) to shield myself from the sun. Before we enter the structure, we have to pass through numerous stores that sells all sorts of stuff ranging from food, clothes, hats, pets, biscuits, ornaments,etc...

These stalls sells literally everything.At least they are covered with plastic sheds to shield from the heat of the sun.

Cheap sunglasses ranging from 30 baht to 50 baht.( that RM3-RM5)

The tormenting heat was unbearable, but that didn't dampen my three kids spirit.

If Isabelle can throw a peace sign, that means she's alright.

Seriously, the sun was so bright, it actually posed a challenge for me to take a decent photo. 

Leonidas was wide away checking out the things there.

Natalie was so excited that she moved ahead of us urging us to walk faster!!!

2 sisters checking out the goodies and eagerly waiting for daddy and mummy to buy for them. 

"Natalie! Strike a pose!"

Don't hide your face!!!!

That's better!!!!

We were desperately looking for a shed for the kids.

There was a Buddhist temple , but everyone was too drained to climb up another fleet of stairs.

I proceeded into the palace ruins for photography session and learn about the history of Ayutthaya through a nifty devise called the infocaster that narrates the history and significance f every structure of the ruined palace. 

With a help of a map directing which monument to visit first really helps.

As we enter into the compound, one would not miss three massive pagodas which house the remains of King Boronnatrailokanat, his brother King Borommaracharithirat, and King Ramathibodi II.

The surrounding smaller less elaborated stupas are built to contain the remains the lower hierarchy in the monarchy.

As I walked along the path, I realized that this photo below used to be grandiosely built palace with functional chambers for specific purposes. 

Ayutthaya was once the most flourished and richest province in Siam, until their nemesis, the Burmese army invaded and destroyed the palace to bits, even the statue of Buddha wasn't spared. 

Part of the monastery which is smashed to ruins by the Burmese regime. 

Another view from the destroyed monastery. 

Smaller stupas for the lower ranked within the Kingdom house their remains. 

A pathway that leads you into the temple.

I can imagine the intricacy of their workmanship in building the temple.

Can you make out what is this? This structure is more than 500 years old. Lets looks from another point of view then.

Its a statue of the Buddha.

The three "Prangs" from another perspective.

One final picture before leaving the compound.
Isabelle and Ylanna have been eagerly and repeatedly telling us they wanted to g for the elephant ride.

Poor Natalie started crying the moment she saw the elephants! While Isabelle and Ylanna were seated on the elephant, I was quickly asked to snap a picture of them... too bad, the only picture that I managed was this:-

I had to hop on our van and asked the driver to overtake the elephant in order to take a decent frontal picture.

After that, while headed home, we stopped by a seafood restaurant.

This is a well known sight where the fig tree grew around the head of the Buddha.

BY I the end of the day, we were all pooped. Tired! I could hardly walked anymore. That particular night, I slept like a log!